Then why is is still NOT ok to take your own life?
I mean it when I say both parents hate me. My Dad doesnt want anything more to do with me after I asked him via text message if there was anything going on between him and his female tenant (all the tell tale signs of an affair are there, even my sister is suspicious). He washed his hands of me completely, and said I was disgusting. I am equally as repulsed when his slapper of a so called "tenant" made foul comments about my looks and said I could see my Dad when I wanted (before we ended contact).
My Mum literally doesnt want anything to do with me. We are in the same house together, and this morning I heard her have a conversation on the phone to do with putting the house price down (our old one which hasnt sold yet-she’s in debt), and I was concerned, as I knew if she went behind my pig of a fathers back, all sorts of things could go wrong. I asked her why she did this, and she started shouting and screaming at me and crying saying my Dad had sent her a horrid text about it and in other words, I am a thorn in her side and would rather I wasnt here. She’s even been on to the council before to try and make me homeless. I cant afford to pay her rent just now; it’s a vicious circle. I work shifts, and there have hardly been any in just now. When I ring for one, there isnt any going, and when they ring, I cant go in because I feel so ill with depression. The bitch even said to me, that when the idiots who are renting our old house out leave in March, if she cant sell the old house straight away, she’s going to sell the one we have, move in with my Nan and I’ll be homeless, as theres no room there. So much for love.
And on here. God, I seriously must be the most hated person on YA. I have about 29 contacts, but at the same time, more blocked people. Most of which send me abuse. I had one the other day from someone: "You’re a racist sack of shite. Stop blaming ethnic minorities for your crap life".
What’s the point though seriously?! Why’s it still a bad idea to commit suicide when everyone around you hates your guts? You wouldnt be missed. Sometimes, as shit as it sounds, I think back to the time when a friend of the families son died as a result of a tragic ski-ing accident. At the funeral, I kept my thoughts to myself, but thought, why cant I be in the coffin dead? Why cant he be alive? Over 500 people came to his funeral, so that says something.
Thanks Champagne, I thought you had been suspended again, as I was unable to get onto your profile- it had that "oops" sign come up again.
Done Champagne!
Thanks Kez, I have in fact enquired about flat sharing with a friend, but unfortunately I was too late in the enquiry! I have asked that he consider me next time though if a flatmate decides to leave.
A good idea granny!
And this is precisely what I mean about some folk on here. Some have a "dont give a shit" attitude. I would like to think that I have been of some help to people on here who have been as vulnerable before.
I’m 22 next week for people asking. Wont be celebrating though 